Step By Step
- rachael0824
- Mar 23
- 2 min read
I’m enjoying this journey so much so that I come up with a myriad of ideas during the day. Writing this, filming that, etc. I work seven days a week from morning till night. But last week, a concussion caused me to reevaluate a lot. Yes, it took that. Why am I so hard headed? I want to make this work so bad. I’m also trying to make a difference for people and animals and feeding my little family.
I have decided that I am spreading myself too thin. Yes, trips up and down this mountain along with stress and actually better food has caused me to lose almost forty pounds. But hey. Makes it easier to get up and down the mountain!
Someone asked me today why we haven’t gotten jobs since we have been here. So, first, we are not allowed to work yet in Italy while waiting on paperwork. Second, I spend hours on writing assignments. And all of our social media, videos and animal rescue outreach? That’s not a job? I know, it is unconventional. But let me assure you, this is our jobs. Obviously not high paying yet. But I’m done feeling unworthy and feeling in lack each day. That’s why I work so hard. That’s why we both work so hard. Also. Fruitycake.
Today, I worked on my normal jobs, but also “took a break” to try and get chicken wire off a step I found in feet of mud by the waterfall. I think this would be a great place to pray and meditate and I was determined to clear it. But I soon got tired. That’s when Nate stepped in from building bat boxes and helped. Now, tomorrow, I can wash the step and try to meditate and picture my future. I want it to be easier so bad. So bad.
On the days I complain, I hope you also know I love it here. But I won’t say it’s easy. I do know it’s step by step. I’m hoping this week we can get a leaf blower to take care of Brickle’s gravesite and summer time. And a grout towel to start making our home a home! Little goals? Not to me. Nothing is little here. Not even my dreams.
-Rachael
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