What’s In The Waterfall

I know I’m strong. But I don’t know if I am this strong! I keep recalling the confidence that my Granny had in me. I keep trying to see her in my mind. Telling me that I could and should do anything I want to. But it’s hard to “want to” right now when I’m so exhausted. This rain is really getting to me!

I suppose that in a normal situation, it really isn’t that bad. But fighting with the rain when it comes to washing clothes and drying clothes and slipping down the path? It’s a never ending cycle. And it has gotten to me this week.

I wish I knew when winter ended here. But I don’t. I’m learning everything as I go. And I do know never to look at the weather reports. Because they are never right. I do have the feeling that this weather pattern will get better. And I’ll look forward to that. At least, I’ll try. When we have wood for the wood stove, it’s easier to be positive.  But again. The rain.

I hope that when we look back this time next year that we will wonder how we did it. That we will be happy with our progress. I guess that’s what I am learning that life is about. Pushing thru to aim for something better.

I try to be an encouragement to all. I chose this path and we chose this project. But I can’t say that I don’t have second thoughts on some days. Granny? What would you tell me right now? I’m going to try and hear your voice in the waterfall.

Just like my Granny, the waterfall is strong. Just like Granny, the waterfall has wisdom from being around so long. I can hear it saying to take care of this land so that we take care of the living things here that need us now. And in years to come. It’s a bigger purpose than saving a house. I can do it. What’s in the waterfall? Hope. I’ll take it.

-Rachael